30 Week Update

30 weeks on Easter!

  I'm so close yet so far away! *sigh*  Things have definitely been tougher on me, since Morgan is gone.  I really hand it to single moms and military spouses, doing stuff on your own is not a walk in the park.  I feel terrible, the everyday things that Morgan did for me I totally took for granted...never again!  I'm only sad it took him leaving to make me realize.  I will let him know how big a help he is to me and to Mills.  Anyways back to the pregnancy.  I've been having lots of contractions.  I generally have them towards the end of the day.  They aren't painful.  I called the nurses' line at to OB clinic and the nurse assured me it was normal and to start counting how many I have in an hour.  If I have 12 in one hour I'm supposed to come right in.  I"m also supposed to be counting kicks, 10 an hour.   I haven't given it much thought because he moves a lot.  Now I'll pay more attention.  Everyone in my office is treating me like I'm about to pop at any moment.  They don't want me standing long, they don't want me walking much, they don't want to stress me out...it's nice but I'm fine. I still am super tired, it's all the peeing in the middle of the night, I have a hard time falling back asleep after.  I downloaded The Hunger Games on my IPad, thinking some reading would help me fall asleep.  NOPE I totally got into the story!  Dang...that was a fail! I'm actually getting a day off this week courtesy of my boss for helping him out big on this recent deadline.  I really can't wait for it!  I am planning on chilling out, not completely...I have a few things to get done but I will for sure relax.  I'm dreaming of how my day will go.   I sure do need the time off, weekends just go by too quick.  I have a doc appointment in a couple weeks, they'll schedule me for my c-section then.  Can't wait.  All in all, everything is going pretty well.  Growing a baby takes it toll!

Easter 2012 Weekend

This weekend was quite eventful.  I made it to 30 weeks and it was Easter on Sunday.  We had a lot of stuff to do this weekend.  On Friday, Mills and I just chilled at home.  I was tired because on Thursday night I couldn’t sleep, she was tired because there were a lot of activities at school that day.  We basically came home, I got dinner ready, we ate dinner, I gave her a bath, then we settled into bed, she was watching Barney on the Ipad and I was reading a book, we both fell asleep.  I’m sure it would have been a cute photo op, but no one there to take it. 

Saturday, I decided to get some doughnuts for breakfast.  We went to Dunkin Doughnuts, Mills requested the pink one!  How girly!  So I got us a half dozen mixed and of course her pink one.  Then I was able to stop by the photographer’s place and grab our pics.  I love them.  I don’t really love a black background…but these pics ended up nice.  It’s crazy because ever since Mills was born we have taken family pics…I haven’t got any of them developed!  I KNOW.  In the age where it’s easier then ever, I have nothing.  So I’m making it a point to get them developed and displayed.  The only sucky thing is that its hard here because it cost so much to get pics developed here.  I sure do miss Costco.   I checked, for an 8x10 its 480 Yen, that’s like $6 US dollars.  I know madness.  Anyways, back to our day.  We went to the hospital they were having an egg hunt for kids on Saturday.  I took Mills there.  I wanted to give her a taste of how it would be on Sunday.  This would be the first time she would have to really compete with other kids for eggs.  She did really WELL!  She even got an egg with a prize in it!  She proudly walked around for the rest of the day with 2 Easter Baskets.  That night after dinner we decorated eggs.  I hate things being messy.  I know I’m crazy cuz I have a 2 year old and soon to be newborn so messy will just be a way of life.  But I’m a little OCD about it.  We have a housekeeper that comes once a month to clean, like deep clean, and I pick up before they come!  Yup, crazy.  Either way, I knew that this was going to be a task for me, I knew it was going to be messy and I needed to be fine with it because Amelia was having a good time.  It took all of me not to freak out.  In the end it wasn’t too bad, Mills had a ball and the eggs turned out pretty cute.  Not too shabby after a 20 year hiatus from dying eggs.

Sunday was a wonderful day!  It was Easter Sunday.   Unfortunately this is the 2^nd Easter in a row that Morgan has missed….sucks.  We tried to make the best out of it.  In the am I gave Mills her baskets, yes plural, she got one from her OR grandparents and one from us.  She was pretty stoked, but what really got her going was the bubbles that we gave her!  She was having a ball blowing and popping bubbles.  We went to the 10 am mass, we met up with the B fam.  After church there was an egg hunt, that was MADNESS!  There were like a billion kids running all over.  The egg hunt area was sectioned off by age, when the older kids eggs ran out they started jumping over the ropes and getting into the little kids area (Mills’ age group was 1-3) .  That was super annoying.  I took off my shoes and had to run while I dragged Mills to get eggs before the big kids could get them….all while being almost 8 months prego.  All in all Mills only ended up with 4 eggs.  It was sort of a blessing in disguise because she has gotten so much candy from her baskets and the egg hunt before.  After the hunt we went to brunch at the Officer’s club.  It was super busy, but what else would I expect on an Easter Sunday???  It was delish, we ate till out hearts’ content and some.   Mills was giving me a bit of trouble, I knew she was tired and in need of a nap.  Soon as we were done and I got her in the car, she fell asleep in 2.5 seconds….out cold.  When we got home I also partook in a nap with her.  I spent the rest of the day finishing up laundry and getting ready for the week ahead.    Weekends are of course my favorite part of the week.  This was our first weekend without Morgan.  I was glad that we were blessed with beautiful weather and we had activities to keep us occupied.  Mills still asks about her daddy, I figure the busier we keep ourselves time will go faster and he will be home sooner  rather than later. 

 

Saturday Night at the Movies

Movie: The Sitter

Rating: *** (out of 5)

Comments:  This was pretty funny, I found myself laughing.  The story was kind of out there.  The kids in the movie were cute.  There were some moments where the sitter was teaching the kids a lesson and it was pretty cute, also good lessons.   But there is no way in hell I would want this sitter watching Mills! haha I always enjoy Jonah Hill movies.  This wasn’t his funniest movie.  It’s not a family movie, lots of cursing, drugs and sex references.  It was a light hearted comedy that it good for a Saturday night.  I wouldn’t buy it on DVD, but if it were on TV I wouldn’t change the channel.

Daddy's Little Girl

When I was pregnant with baby Mills and I found out that I was having a girl, I was ecstatic!  I dreamed about having a lil mini me.  We would get our nails done, I would do her hair all cute, we could obsess over pink together, and all the other lil girly things I can think of.  Fast forward to where we are today and instead of Mills being my mini me, she is definitely Morgan’s lil girl.  She loves being with him, she gets so excited when he comes home, she is even a lil rough around the edges like her dad.  Those two really are partners in crime.  I know it was love at first sight.  He was even the first person to change her diaper!  {On a side note: I was too scared to do it, fearing I would break her}.  She has always favored her dad over me, she said Dada before Mama, {I chalked that up to her having a hard time sounding out the M}.  It is a very cute relationship though, it’s funny how interested she is about the things he does, or even how much more she listens to him over me.  Oh and at her daycare they told me whenever he drops her off she cries, but when I drop her off she doesn’t cry and there are many days where she asks about where her Daddy is with no mention of her Mommy.

But there has been a lil bit of a wrench thrown into the mix.  Lately she has been all over me.  Usually she is all over her dad, but now it’s always me that she wants.  It’s been a nice change, she always wants to sit by me, to cuddle with me, to hold my hand, for me to take care of her and about everything else under the sun.  Maybe things have changed, she can be my mini me after all.  Maybe kids change with age?   I was talking with her teacher about it one day and her teacher quickly informed me that it was “just because I was pregnant”.  She said that it is common for kids to latch on to the mother while pregnant. So now I don’t know where I am.  Is she just hanging around me cuz I’m with child or have I really become her new fave?  I guess time will tell and we will really find out after this lil guy is born.  Can’t I just have both of them?  One mini me and one mama’s boy?  I think I’m being too selfish there.  But in the mean time I’ll enjoy my lil girl while she “latches” on to me J

It's the little things ..

Today I found a card that Morgan left for me.  Man…. I definitely was crying while reading it.  He was just saying that he wished he wasn’t leaving me under these conditions and that I’m strong.  Also that he loves me and Mills and he’ll miss us.   He is so sweet its crazy, I love small gestures, even though it’s a card his words meant so much.  I definitely needed it.  It’s only been a short while and I miss him terribly.  Finding this card made me cry, but totally put a smile on my face.  I’m thinking about how much time we have left till he comes back and it’s a lot of time.  Totally sucks.  Reading this card totally made my heart melt.  I’m glad I found it and it’s things like this that show what a good man I have.  J

29 Weeks Update

Sneak Peak from our Photographer

29 weeks….most things are still the same.  Morgan left on his short deployment.  We were able to take family/maternity pics before he left.  I wanted to take them before he left just in case I had the baby early.  I was really more focused on having family pics and maybe a couple belly shots.  Definitely no bare belly shots.  Thankfully I don’t have bad stretch marks, but I’m just uncomfortable with the whole idea.  I think maybe I’m too shy, but more power to those woman who are able to be bare belly and proud.  We took our pics with a photographer who I sort of knew, through other people who have used her.  I didn’t really want to take studio pictures, since we are on a beautiful island I would have rather taken advantage of the scenery, but because a friend was supposed to take them and then wasn’t able to these were last minute pics. I ended up really liking them!  She was so awesome with Mills too, she was making all these crazy noises and getting her to laugh.  I’ll have to use her again. She is kind of pricey though, but really I was just so impressed I get how she can charge so much.  Other than that, nothing really different.  Well, my cravings for sweets are more intense.  I’ve literally eating ice cream everyday for the past few days.  I am cutting back though, no need for all the extra sugar and calories.

On a side note>>>

{I'm getting a pedi next week,  I really can't wait. Morgan got it for me for our 9 year wedding anniversary}

{I'm nervous how this next month or so is going to go, it's tough being pregnant and having to care for a toddler and going to school}

{I want to get a new book, not sure what to read though} 

Saturday Night at the Movies

Movie: My Week with Marilyn

Rating: ****(out of 5)

Comments:   Michelle Williams was such a great Marilyn!  I have always been a big fan of Marilyn Monroe and so I needed to watch this movie.  Watching it really put her in a different light for me.  I’ve always adored her in movies and pictures, I knew she was troubled but I never really focused on that.  This movie showed a different side, a more human side….and ultimately what lead to her downfall. Either way, great movie and great portrayal of that late Miss Monroe.